Saturday, May 19, 2012

Focusing on the Happy

Hey there friend!

Today I'd like to share a favorite happy saying of mine with you ~

    Live Today
Cherish Yesterday
Dream Tomorrow

There's a bit of wisdom in those six words - don't ya think?
Well friend, there's a reason why I'm sharing it with you today.

This weekend marks the anniversary of two big events in my life. Unfortunately, not all big events are happy. And some can be both happy and sad.

Today my Kyle Matthew would have been 30 years old.
Wow! My "baby" would have been thirty!
It's hard not to think about what might have been.

Tomorrow will mark 4 1/2 years since he died.
That was the darkest day of my life!
It's hard not to think of a whole 4 1/2 years since I've seen him, touched him or heard his voice

I know I'll get through this weekend ok even with the hurt and tears and missing my son.

I've got friends and family praying for me. Prayer really does make a difference. And today it brings me peace.

I believe God's promise that "He is close to the brokenhearted". God's promises are true and He is faithful.

This weekend I'll be thinking about those six words as I remember my Kyle. {He liked the saying, too}

Cherish Yesterday ~
~ Kyle Matthew made me a mommy for the second time.  One of the greatest joys in my life has been being a mom to my two sons.
~ He was such a "cuddle bug".  And I always loved his "Kyle hugs".
~ He was never ashamed of being seen with his mom. (even as a teenager)
~ A few of my favorite things - beautiful blue eyes, awesome smile, tenderhearted, a teaser, loved his momma with all his heart, fun, energetic, athletic, loyal......

Dream Tomorrow ~
~ As a child Kyle would worry about me. He'd sometimes have tears in his eyes at night asking what would happen if I died. So we made a pact - whoever went to heaven first would be sure to meet the other by heaven's gates. And through the years we'd sometimes mention it to each other and make sure our promise was remembered. Now that my son lives in heaven, I dream of a tomorrow when he will meet me at the gate.

Live Today ~ 
~ Today I will think of my Kyle more than on other days.
~ I'll live [enjoy, embrace, feel] today even if it brings tears. I will live it and not hide.
~ This weekend I'll do the ordinary .... blog, put the finishing touches on a quilt, do laundry, go to church to worship my Jesus, go to my mom's, clip coupons, put flowers on Kyle's memorial bench. 

As I cherish, live and dream - I'm finding I'm not focusing on the bad, sad and ugliness this weekend could mean. I'm actually able to "focus on the happy". And for 25 years, 6 months and 1 day there was a lot of happy by being Kyle's mom.

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